I’m Just a Girl

A girl who thought I would be young forever and even bad choices would have no consequence.  A girl who lived her life addicted to food as surely as others do to drugs or alcohol.  Buried my pain, my past, my happiness, my loneliness, my boredom in food to paralyze me and stop the feelings.  Started…

A Day Late, but Still Thankful

Baked myself silly today.  Two pumpkin, one sweet potato, blueberry, cherry and a full pan of pecan pie.  People, bring your appetites! I like celebrating Thanksgiving a day later.  It gives me an opportunity to get ready and not on a night after work.  My house will be full, our bellies will be full and…

A Year and a Lifetime of Learning Later

Thanksgiving eve, a wonderful to time to review my choices and my life changes in the last year since I have posted. Many things have changed. I have gotten jobs, I’ve left jobs, I’ve been happy, I’ve been depressed, but mostly I have lived and learned. The last year included an awful job, which I…

Challenging my thoughts

I have been off my path of writing and eating healthy and generally taking care of myself. It is a familiar road to me, I give myself up so easily. But this morning I heard something that resonated with me. “At some point you have to accept who you are” Panache Desai Finally the core…

Losing – Hair and Weight

Pam in her beautiful baldness and in her new wig. Today I took photos of my sister after she shaved her head. Her hair was falling out so quickly that it was easier to take it off herself rather than watching it go strand by strand. She was glowing and looks beautiful. She is stronger…

Family, Jobs and Dogs

I started last week by traveling to Kentucky for my interview. It went well, they have three other candidates they are interviewing. Wait and see, I am not in control. My sister, mother and aunt all traveled to Florida at the end of the week. I am their “Driving Miss Daisy” chauffeur to the condo…

Oncologist

My sister Pam with her son Brian. Yesterday, my sister and her daughter, my mother and I went to the oncologist to get the results of her testing for breast cancer. Good news is that she remained at Stage II. Her body scan was negative and no metastasized cancer. But, because her cancer was small and…

Cold Fear

My daughter is the blonde in the NICU CREW shirt on the left. Rockford Health System reports that its REACT helicopter crew members recently starting training on a temporary aircraft with the hopes of bringing the program back online after a Dec. 10 copter crash that killed three people. Those words put a cold fear…

Life Lessons from a 13 Year Old

Many things in life can be scary. Trying things for the first time, changing your lifestyle, letting yourself be vulnerable. You make the choices. Do you stay in your safe place or take a hesitant step towards a more fulfilling and fun life? My granddaughter showed me the way.  Be scared, but do it anyway!…

Surrender

I have been spending my time on the internet looking for jobs, at least 2 hours a day. Plus I have set up searches on various job boards to email me when new jobs appear. Waiting to find my way and still trying to surrender to controlling the outcome. Doesn’t mean I’m not trying to…