My daughter is the blonde in the NICU CREW shirt on the left.
Rockford Health System reports that its REACT helicopter crew members recently starting training on a temporary aircraft with the hopes of bringing the program back online after a Dec. 10 copter crash that killed three people.
Those words put a cold fear in my heart. Carrie is part of the transport team for NICU and loves her job. I am proud of what she does and who she is, but the thought of her flying again scares me to death.
When she was about eight years old I dreamed that she died in a helicopter. The dream was vivid and remained in my mind for a long time. At that time I thought the odds of her being in a helicopter were slim. By the time she actually became part of the transport team, I was proud of her accomplishments and the dream was gone.
But on December 10th it came back with a fury. I have suggested she not fly anymore. I have been angry and non-supportive. Truth is, it is what she wants to do. Keep a baby alive until it can reach the higher level of technology that her department provides.
I don’t know how to deal with it. All the statistics, odds, chances that this will happen again at this hospital I know are overwhelming. But it doesn’t make the fear of my dream as her mother disappear.