Today I am in bed. Partly because of sickness, partly because of depression. I think my post from the other day Shut-up-and-move made me really take a hard look at myself and I don’t like what I see. I always want the easy way out. I always quit. I always settle. I don’t know if I have what it takes to change.
Not having a job and a routine is also a big part of it. Having been let go due to downsizing, good reasoning or not, makes me feel worthless and not relevant in the working world anymore. Every job I see that looks like what I do, now wants so much more. Experience in this industry, experience in their software, etc. blah, blah, blah Have I outgrown my usefulness?
Sorry to be a downer today, but I do want to tell the truth when posting. Hope for a brighter tomorrow.